A very unpleasant day ......




On sunday,i took the last quarter of medicine left for my pulse.After that i did not feel uncomfortable at all.As my appointment to see Dr Khoo was today morning,i thought there's no harm not taking that particular medicine for just one day.Never did i expect my heart to beat so fast,to a rate such that 120+ per minute.After that i really feel that something is not quite right and i could feel that my heart was beating fast too.This resulted in me unable to go to work.I called up Dr Khoo immediately and had to go to NUH to get that particular medicine.In the past when i only take the medicine for my high blood pressure,i never felt this way before.Now without this medicine only i became like that.This makes me feel as if i have became a drug addict =.=
After i have taken the medicine,i went home and i slept through till late evening.I just felt so tired.

Today i went to NUH to know the result of the CT scan before going for work.The tumor above my kidney have became e size of a tennis ball(about 2cm by 4cm).What is confirmed is that i must go for operation to remove that tumor.What i got is a cancer i think,but it's not the typ that multiply all over the body.The name of it is "PHAECHROMOCYTOMA".The operation will take place in december.This month on e 26 i will be meeting the surgeons who will be doing the operation for me.Then on the 3rd december i have to see Dr Khoo.Dr khoo also say that a day before the operation i will have to be hospitalised and be on drip to ensure that i am hydrated before the operation.After all it is a major operation.I won't say that i am totally not afraid or worry about it.You all may see me appearing to be no worry or afraid in front of my mom,because i dont want her to worry so much as she is already very worried.If you see that in me when i am working,it will be because of the job.... ....


As for now to when i see the surgeon,i will have to think of questions to ask the surgeon least i have any regrets when i go for the operation.Currently,what i thought of was to ask how long will the operation take and how long will i need to stay in the hospital.Readers,feel free to give suggestions.Thanks.


I wont say today is very busy.During the "lunch time",it was rather quiet.Then the customer was sort of coming in quite slowly.Then i was practically standing almost the whole of 6 hours work except when i am eating my lunch.But when i was eating half way,left a mouthful,customer came in.So i had to attend to them.Now my legs are really super tried.lol then when the customer asked for milk tea,guesses what i served them?I dont know what exactly was on my mind,i actually served them the chinese tea with milk.omg.What they wanted was the "english tea with milk"then i was....then boss came over and helped me out.lol.
Then i think i am not careful enough that the basin was more than 50% jammed.Hope tomorrow i will be able to do something to alleviate it.....












somebody,please give me the courage to let me go though all these.

today i made a error at the tea house again when i was keying the machine.just that last step only,i press the wrong button =.= i forgot to press the button with the two 0.

After work,at 5 plus,i was talking to Alice.I asked her how she feel about my work,as in my work performance.She say that i have yet to catch it,as in the system,how should it be.She also said that i need to smile more often.Well,perhaps i am just too serious or tensed up.She then told me what i have to do.

The following week is gonna be more hectic for sure.This is because Alice is going to China for stock take,but monday she will still be around =)

I must show improvements on monday.To me,it's a must.I want to be up to expectations.

I dont know why,recently i am quite forgetful.Today,before i leave,i left my watch at the counter.Some how,as i was walking to the station,i remembered it.So i went back to take,but i just did not remember to sign out.On monday i must remember to get it done....


wa this time so accurate sia.It came yesterday morning when i just started work.Don't know why,first time gets so horrible that it disturbed my sleep.Then this morning,I had no appetite at all.Eventually i still ate something as i need to take my medicine.It only become a bit better at lunch time,but i ate less than usual.As a result of that,i was sort of moody or rather emo today,then did not smile much at working when attending to customer....
I just hope that it will not worsen the next few days -_-

Today's work was alright.Due to the rain,there wasn't not a lot of customer.It is coming to the end of the week soon.I have been working at the tea house for almost a week soon.I wonder how do the manager,Alice,and the boss thinks about my work performance,hope they are satisfied with my work performance.but i think they sure say that i need to be more careful.....hmmm shall ask Alice tomorrow.Most of my chats with Alice,more or less have talked a bit about my domestic affairs.I think she just want to know more about me.Soon,next week,she is going to China for stock take for the whole week.i wonder how am i going to manage...Although that time did ask her if she wanna hire one more people to work,she say maybe when she's at china.Which means it's not confirm yet.gotta ask her tomorrow,but if she say dont want then forget it....Too bad they dont need me to work on weekends or work the whole day on weekdays.If not i will be able to earn more money.Haha but i got an idea,when Koen is unable to work on weekends,then i cover his work on weekends.Although i have learnt quite a fair bit of things from the job,there's still a lot for me to learn at the tea house.To be frank,i enjoyed this job.Each time after work,i looked forward to the next day of work at the tea house xD


lol still owe my dear juniors a meal.Promised them to treat them a meal after syf.But gotta wait for panda to come back from her holiday oversea trip first.Most probably will treat them at e tea house i am working at.....






Looking forward to nypco concert,work and treating my dear juniors xD and of course earning more money.hahahahaha xP







This friday going for CT scan at nuh '_' gotta spend a lot of money again ....just hope that everything will turn out fine... ....
But recently my blood pressure was rather high.I think it's because i drank quite a lot of tea which contains caffeine.After that i only drink 'white tea' which alice said that it does not contain any caffeine at all.Then my blood pressure did lower a little because i did not take those tea with caffine.However,Dr khoo says there's still caffine in it.lol how man?I can't dont trust him as he is my doctor.But i also trust alice.how?!?!?now it's like i am a bit caught in the middle like that.I dont really understand why he says 'white tea' also have caffeine :/

lalalalala~~~~~

Today's work was alright.I start to have a sense.I reached just before 11am.Then i realised that Alice was not in.I did as usual then boss came over.He told me to sweep e floor if it's dirty.I looked around e floor then i realised he was hinting me to sweep the floor.After that he went to rest.At about 1130 when i was e last part of preparation work before the "lunch" hour,a customer came in.Thus i had to attend to him.He ordered Lemon Tea.Lucky i have already learnt how to make this drink and it turns out that it was to his liking.From there i get a sense of satisfaction which i never get before from doing this kind of stuffs : D After the "lunch" hour when i was transporting e tea cups to the other side where it usually are,about a meter away,the cover just dropped.it dropped on to the table.Lucky me,it did not break.Then i went to get the rest of the cups,2 by 2.then i just move a little bit only,then cover dropped again =.= Initially it was placed nicely on e cup.i don't understand why or how come it will drop.However i managed to prevent it from breaking with my leg.Then it was like between my thigh and the freezer.Phew!Then Alice was like "why you do things this way?"Alice reached just before the "lunch" hour.When she came in,her face looked stern and like some thing bad have happened.After that slowly went back to normal.

About 15minutes after our lunch,Alice and i were cleaning the table thoroughly.Wow!I did not even clean my house's table till like that lor.lol After that we were drinking tea and cooling down.haha then Boss treated us waffles.Then Alice treated me tea leaves egg.yummy yummy : P haha looking forward to tomorrow 's work xD Too bad,they dont want me to work on saturday.Hmmn...if possible,i wanna work as much as possible so that i can earn more money.hahaha

WORK

Working at tea house was fine.I learned quite a fair bit of things.When it's the lunch hour,the busiest time,when everything have to be fast,i don't feel stress at all.At the tea house,it's a pleasant feeling.Anyone who want to have some quiet and relax,can go to e tea house.The people there are pleasant and somewhat interesting in one way or another.


Today at work i made quite a bit of error.The first one was when i was going to set e table.At that point of time,I was at a spot which is a bit narrow.Then someone was walking towards me,I dodged and the plates hit e counter,"PIANG" =.= then Alice was like looking at me i think.Lucky the plates or e counter side did not break.The second one was terrible.I feel as if there's something wrong with my eyes.I actually gave e wrong bill to the customer.This was only found out when other customer ask for the bill >.< The customer who i gave i wrong bill to,had left and they have paid a dollar less of what they should pay in e original bill.OMG. My head nearly drop.The third one was when i was washing e cups with soap.The basin was quite deep.As it was slippery,i dropped the flitter of the cup on to e cap which was on e cup,"PIANG".Alice came over and see what happen.Phew,it did not break.If not i dont know what will happen...

lol readers reading this post must be thinking,"how clumsy i am" haha

Yesterday had emaths paper1,still considered ok i think,but at least 10 marks fly away =.=

On monday,after e remedial,i was some how reluctant to leave.I had that sudden fear & stress in me.i left e school with heavy foot steps...In e afternoon i don't feel that bad.But at night,I felt rather stressed.However on tuesday afternoon when i was doing e paper,i don't really feel stress.Instead,i was clam.Can say that i am doing e paper quite peacefully,a bit like i am doing homework like that,but a bit engrossed in it.Or focus i will say...

Today's paper2 was not too good i will say,because at least 20 marks gone >.<
Lucky i managed to finish both e papers.Today's paper2 last few sub-question did in a rush,which resulted in that ugly hand writing of mind.lol but it is still illegible.

This friday will be going to meet Dr Khoo again.Shall ask him if i can take lifesaving course.I think my mom wants me not to take up the course as i have high blood pressure.However i am still keen on taking up e course,but wanna know what he thinks of it.I have not let Coach Isaac know about it yet....On 6 nov gotta go for CT scan... ...


I am glad that i got a job now.I am starting work this coming saturday at a tea house.My mom is currently out of job and she's e sole bread winner.I shall try to work as many days as i can to earn more money to help her out financially.I hopped that i can at least pay for my own medical fees and if possible,help my mom with some of e bills... ...


Now, N levels and O level emaths are over.I can have a good rest before i continue to strive.

Somehow,there's fear and stress which i dont know how to put across...


I think what bothering me e most is about my high blood pressure and e coming o level emaths... ...

Today went to see doctor at nuh.I have to continue to take medicine.I have to wait till my blood pressure is lower and my heart rate is slower then can do e CT scan....
I have already done e ultrasound scan on e kidney.They found one 2cm unidentified lump.The doctor told me,my adrenaline level was 5 times of that of a normal person.They suspect that it is that 2cm unidentified lump caused e high blood pressure.If it's really that,then i have to go for operation and remove it.....

Due to my high blood pressure,i cannot do strenuous exercise or play strenuous sports =.=
At most is slow swim >.<>.<>.<



Now i think i just prioritise myself and do whatever i can and get myself ready for e exam.As for my high blood pressure,i think i can only monitor it at home,take medicine and take e doctor advise.There is nothing much i can do about it.